No, she is not a poet, but
she is able to find the poetry in life. No, she is not a writer, but her words
are born from her heart to find meaning to her thoughts, they escape her being,
and she can't and won't "withhold" them. NO, she is not a singer, but
her voice can transmit emotions and feelings that otherwise she doesn't know
how to show.
She was born in part like
this, but for what it seems to be a lifetime, she has waited for this moment to
become truly hers. Now she knows she is the person she is happy to be with, the
person she speaks the most with, the person she knows appreciates the beauty
within her and in others. Day by day she has less need for validation, as her
right validation mirrors have appeared finally during her long painful wait;
she has seen her reflection in those mirrors life has in time put her way, and she
has seen herself with the kindest and mature reflection of her heart. She can
smile at herself, she now knows and likes who she is. Still, the hardest
lessons remains her challenge, to let go of her mirrors that are dearest to her
heart, as they no longer serve that purpose. She must not make again the
mistake of living through vision of others and unreal images of herself, she
must keep evolving, she has learned that lesson well.
She has waited long, time
sometimes is still a painful companion of her dreams in life, but life demands
her patience over and over again, the lessons have not been mastered she must
understand that.
Yesterday behind her face a
hidden sorrow came to her, she needed answers she knew she already had, still
in a different land, “HE” sent to her, an
elegant, beautiful and honest messenger of her second homeland, a messenger who
had gone through the same as her. He told her his story of hope, with words and
with emotion reflected in his kind and honest smile, his self-assurance and
pleasant manner reminded her of what she really wants in a man, and then he
said softly, kindly and with that shine in his beautiful Scandinavian blue eyes
"The only advice I have for you, is to let time be".
She is stubborn, and
refuses sometimes to remember what she already knows, nothing makes sense in
the wrong time, and all makes sense in the right time.
There are a few things in
her life that she knows need time . When it comes to her, SHE has arrived to
the now, her time is now, and she is living it, as for the second, she has the
certainty that even if she has to wait, she has never been as close as she is
now to find it... and that puts a big smile in her face.
From Utrecht, NL - March
2010
